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Essence Merging
What if love wasn’t something you found, but something you became?
My Story
In Essence Merging, I invite you into my story, raw and intimate, all shame discarded. Like all transformation, this is a hero’s journey. The psychologist devoted to perfection unravels after a near-death experience shatters everything I thought I could control.
Guided by Apenimon, a Costa Rican shaman, I learn to breathe not just to survive, but to awaken. And with Finn, a fellow seeker mysteriously drawn into my orbit, I encounter the sacred tension between surrender and desire, the kind of love that doesn’t consume, but transforms. Ancient tantric practices are rediscovered following the leading of breath. Traumas are healed. The lessons of what holy love actually is are learned in my head, then practiced with my heart and finally lived with union of my entire being.
Sypnosis
Once upon a time: I lived in my head, overworked, detached, surviving by doing instead of being.
Every day: I sought meaning in achievement, not in presence.
Until one day: I almost died. Breathless, I realized I’d never truly lived.
Because of that: I surrendered to breath, to mystery, to the current moving through all things.
Because of that: The walls around my heart dissolved, revealing the raw, naked beauty of being alive.
Until finally: I understood that awakening isn’t an escape from pain, but the devotion to be still, to trust, to love through it all. And since abundance is a facet of love, I realized that I am worthy of all abundance.
Refelction
I write where psychology meets prayer .
where breath becomes language,
and love becomes the only truth worth studying.
Why this book now
We are a world gasping for breath, rushing, numbing, forgetting the preciousness of being here.
Essence Merging arrives as a reminder that the thriving as a result of healing doesn’t come from speed, but the slow surrender to peruse your own soul. Yours is the love you have always been looking for.
It’s a mirror for those standing on the edge of transformation, whispering:
You are not breaking down. You are breaking open.
You are reuniting with the One breath that breaths us all. You are essence that seeks to merge with the Source of all.
✺ Frequently asked questions ✺
Q: What is the genre?
A: Spiritual memoir with the pulse of a love story, raw, reflective, and awakening.
Q: What inspired it?
A: Two near-death experiences, years of clinical work, and a lifelong devotion to the divine conversation within all things.
Q: Who is it for?
A: Seekers, healers, therapists, mystics, anyone craving depth, connection, and remembrance.
Q: Is it autobiographical?
A: Yes. It’s drawn from lived experience, transmuted through story so others can see their own reflection.
Q: What makes it different?
A: It doesn’t teach awakening, it embodies it.
Every page is breathwork, devotion, and love made visible.
Author
My Unique Lens
I’ve spent a lifetime studying the human mind and ages discovering my own and the Greater soul.
My work bridges both; the clinical and the mystical, the measurable and the miraculous.
What I’ve lived, I now offer: a map for returning to love through breath, devotion, and divine intimacy with life itself.
